Dear Joe;
I kind of feel like saying, "Can we drop this?" I know it's not like Karen to say this. But I'm a little confused...

Maybe 'enjoying it' is not essential when you study English. All I want to say is "Enjoy it, and you'll get more interested in it, and you'll be able to keep on doing it!" That's my policy, that's my belief.

I could end this article with the sentence, "I need love in order to keep doing it." But after I read your piece, I realized one serious problem of mine. Now I understand why I don't try to write English every day. I like writing English, but I don't like do it 'every day'.

Now I feel so comfortable with the pace of my posting. But I feel 'part of me' wants to write more often. It's like Karen is two women. One of Karens whispers to the other Karen, "Do you feel uncomfortable with the idea that you have to post your piece every day? Then just forget it. You don't have to do it against your will. You should just ENJOY your life!" I listen to her and obey her, after all.

I'd like to stay in this room where I feel cozy. I might be like a prisoner who has her own key. I wouldn't like to escape until I find it comfortable to write English every day.

It's not that I'm afraid of making mistakes or showing my 'lousy' English to everyone. I don't care about that kind of embarrasment. What I'm really afraid of is to think "I HAVE TO do something as a routine activity." I awfully hate the words 'I have to.'

Exactly 2 years ago, an extraordinary thing happend to me. Someone praised my English, saying, "Your English is so natural!" His words drastically changed my English-learning life.
I doubt if something extraordinary like that will happen to me AGAIN. I hope so, but it's been 2 years, and look at me! I still hesitate to write English every day. Maybe I'm weak, I'm a wimp. Call me whatever you like.

I'm just waiting, waiting for myself to 'naturally' get to feel like writing English more & more often. I believe the time will come sooner or later if and only if I keep on studying English.

You said, "What if you(Karen) stopped studying English right now?"
I guess you intentionally used the subjunctive mood （仮定法）. However, believe it or not, there sure is a possibility that I might stop studying English. I might hear you saying, "I don't know you, Karen." in the near future. I really hope NOT, of course. If I stop learning English, Karen will disappear from this world. If Karen passes away, I won't be able to 'enjoy' my life like this.




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